Friday, April 27, 2007

now at my own desk at home blogging.

dun you feel disturbed?

dun you feel uneasy?

if you dun, i do feel that way man.

well it seemed like a good 'restart'

but wad the.

i really talked casually, with no intention of being sarcastic AT ALL

i mean was i ever sarcastic at u?

the way you look at me feels like i've done so much wrong because i talk to u


really, this sucks.

i mean this is the normal me, i talk casually.

i speak direct most of the time

i joke alot, sometimes that i annoy ppl unknowingly

i'm always serious when i talk to you



i'm ranting

i dunno what you went thru for today but

i didnt slp well for 2 days in sch

nvm it's ok, my animation get screwed up

finally gathered up courage to revamp it

it's ok.

saw u over.

i went over with a heaty body and voice

i asked sincerely, though pretty cluelessly

you gave me that cold look with that tinge of hatred wanting me to go away


i hate it.


I REALLY HATE IT


from now on i wont communicate with u unless you want to



i must have sounded like a jerk or a bastard

but really teach me how to do man



how do i treat u so i'm fit enough to really be ur friend?

or what?


or am i too fat? or too ugly?


i really dunno.


but this really disturbs me the whole day.



alternatively maybe just ignore me and i'll get what you mean le

i'm sorry i sound harsh

but i dun wanna hide my feeling when i wanna express this



i in my life try to be overdo things so u will not feel pressured as i like u

but when i treat u like other normal friends with my casual tone u see me as being sarcastic and against u

am i supposed to treat u the way i pursued you or treat you as a friend merely?

i mean my friends have no problem with my tone or what

i dunno


if u really pms i'm sorry
but i dun think wad i said is uncalled for.


sorry.