Thursday, April 29, 2004
nothing much today...
physics after sch..
i didnt know i dunno so much
lol
in fact i dunno alot of things
anyway...
P.E = F x D
K.E= F x D
P.E1+K.E1 = P.E2+K.E2
lol
i must try to do better for phy..
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, April 29, 2004
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
crap...
forgot to blog
i went offline early
sis play gunbound
that's dumb
i usually blog at the end of the day
lol...
just finish a sketch....
20 min...
without any reference.. the setting of the siblings' home in graves of fireflies...
that anime still impact me as much
inspires me as much
pretty happy that i kinda completed it wihout any erasing
not to mention the faint guidelines tho
it's so nice...
she dug a grave for the fireflies..
when she recalled her mother should be in the grave already...
tears rolled down the brother's face...
he didnt know that her sister had actually found out the death of their mother..
the sister didnt cry since then..
very cute girl... very understanding.. despite her tender age
that took place in the setting i drew.. a small little grave infront of their house
a small cave hole with 2 entrance..
bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Monday, April 26, 2004
nyu...
watched grave of fireflies..
i cried..
it's so sad..
so sour..
the brother... tried his best to give what he can to his sister..
yet..
he had to burn her body in her own hands...
such an impactful anime show..
even tho it's quiet..
even tho it's peaceful..
it really give such sourness towards the end...
so sad.. so sad...
why do fireflies have to die so soon...?
bnn strummed a note at Monday, April 26, 2004
Sunday, April 25, 2004
sense of content...
sense of sweetness from fruits basket..
sense of... peacefulness in a little little little blue...
wad a feeling...
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 25, 2004
i like missed a few days nia...
how come?
i dunno leh...
maybe too tired then always forgot to update..
wheee... zq lending me grave of fireflies!!!
looking towards it man...
today i watched fruits basket
kee lend me one last time
then i nvr watch until now
i'm inlove with it liao..
the story very appealing to me
i like cute stuff and love story..
XD
that's so unbecoming of a guy right..
who cares man...
got one like yuki said...
kyou is someone who attracts people once he get used to it (the environment)
i am agitated for they are playing (he is not)
it somehow brought up my feelings as well
for many a times
i wanna play happily with others
like many a times... like bball..
but..
a barrier blocked me off..
true enough..
cause some aggitation..
=[
the song very nice leh..
so soft so quiet..
i love it...
tohru... yuki... kyou...
XD
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 25, 2004
Thursday, April 22, 2004
nth much..
no 2.4 today
lol
so slack..
maths..
roughly can understand...
i wan to watch grave of fireflies..
i wan...
I WAN TO WATCH!
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, April 22, 2004
hmmm..
taka's case slowly being settled..
pretty glad about it
tiring day
tired tired
like many ppl say
if only one day got 48 hours
then i can use 24 hours to do work an play
24 hours to slp
lol
was tidying up my back..
found some letter which zq gave me back almost 1 year ago..
lol.. pretty interesting letter and when i read again
it really warmed my heart
last line reads: tian kong wu xian lan, zhi yao mei you wu
meaning, sky is of infinite blue only when the fog is cleared
to me
it means that only when ur heart is cleared, you will realise that everything is not that bad afterall
it's pretty true isnt it?
eh... the letter abit in a bad condition
i mean... in quite a bad condition..
due to the fact that i left it in my bag for just 1 whole year
rain or shine
the ink spreaded a little
forming pinking and purple color
pretty nice tho XD
anyway i will really treasure this letter from now on
with that deck of poker card( the only bday prezzie i received that year =])
i wonder if anyone around me has watch grave of fireflies
heard that it's a tragic story based on WWII in japan
it's an anime
would really like to watch if got time and money
or if anyone got this animation hor... lend me..
dang it.. i realised that my chemistry worksheet is gone!
i think i left it in classroom... so many stuff to do... i am going to die already lor...
dang...i promised myself to slp early to day but again i bluffed myself..
omg save me from this lethargicness and addiction!
i should do slp now
take care minna
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, April 22, 2004
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
hmmm...
one day nvr post..
that time sis playing gb so i didnt bother to wait.
nothing much to say for that day also
today i have something to say that is really deep from my heart
i am glad that i have joined red cross in sec 1 and i nvr regretted it.
it's has made me learn alot in terms of discovering myself and learning to accept others in part of my life. now it is yet the same as well.
no doubt there are setbacks and mistakes i have made, i managed to overcome it and face it... this time this incident has fully made me realise the true importance of communication
a team is never full with even all members but just without communication
thing to do now... is to settle the emotions of the unrest..
i do my utmost effort to see to anything i can do..
for this last 2 months..
one may like to act on his own will
but i would like to note and advise people who have such problem also
if you are with a team, been on ur own will only result in disharmony, communication breakdown, unhappiness, confusions, inefficiency...
i got nothing much to say now for i have cleared most of the sky in the peaceful manner...
the sganime..
kenshin is one such example who acted on his part and ignored all advices
and the the end turning around to accuse all others and twisting the fact
hurting takahan, our admin in our heart
saddening..
if takahan is looking at my blog, i want to say that all people will support you
we will support you to the end.
justice will prevail...
feeling very positive and calm
this is gd...
like to thanks those who give me opportunity to communicate today...
bnn strummed a note at Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Monday, April 19, 2004
to people i disappoint and made angry...
please gimme somemore time to reflect
i need to get away from it for abit of time..
sorry..
sorry doesnt cure...
just to let u all know i will return in a while..
._.
i shall learn..
==============================
anyway...
done a sloppy pic for xiu wen.. paiseh ar..
i abit artist block since friday..
really sorry..
hope u will like it anyway...
takahan will win kenshin for this injustice man..
someman who have shown so much passion in art, cosplay and of cos this community that we all are in
justice is all in us
bond is wad we have..
something not seen
not an outsider like kenshin can
all the best taka!
today i slept at 4+ to 8
now still energetic..
die..
my mother said i really lack of slp... that's why i so tired.. she said i was snoring... o.O
omg..
why do i feel so thirsty everytime i wake up..
o.o
anyway..
tml will be better..
bnn strummed a note at Monday, April 19, 2004
Saturday, April 17, 2004
i dunno wad to say
i dunno
maybe everything since the start i've had in mind was all wrong
i guess i'm really not someone of leadership qualities
i dunno how to communicate
i dunno how to think of others
i dunno how to think logically
i dunno how to motivate others
i dunno how to face facts
i dunno how to calm down...
i dunno how to focus...
i dunno how to distribute work
i dunno how to draw a line
i dunno how to endure
i dunno how to optimise resource
i dunno how to be optimistic
i dunno how to let people be convinced about wad i do
i dunno how to let people know that i'm not a superman
i dunno how to let people know that i need help
i dunno how to open my mouth really hard..
i dunno how to...
i thought i could be of some use when people really need help..
i'm not complaining or wad now.. there's no one i can blame..
i hate myself for not communicating..
i really tried to.. i guess... i failed..
i've been always waiting for people to plan with me when i realised that i should be the one who motivate others to be my team
i always forget..
i am always so nosy and taking up things that i do not require
putting extra effort when it's not needed
in the end complaining to others that i wasnt appreciated
i nvr create that bond and trust i should..
why do i realise it until now????
i'm seriously not making any sense..
i dunno how to advance..
i dunno how now..
......
i dun wish to give up..
i'm just tired..
dun give me up..
dun...
perhaps i can think properly tml..
perhaps i should use my time to reflect tml...
it's really time i have to reflect..
._.
bnn strummed a note at Saturday, April 17, 2004
Friday, April 16, 2004
fuking hot weather
this hot weather has finally induced me to scold vulgar language all over the place
i am currently very irritated by this fuking weather
i repeat
this weather IS FUKING HOT!
save me from such agony
even top naked also CMI
C M I
HELP ME
i got no mood to fill in other details but today fa duty ok
tml then i put in more details
CIAO THIS HOT PLACE!
bnn strummed a note at Friday, April 16, 2004
Thursday, April 15, 2004
hmmm
blog early cos wanna slp early
nothing much to write seriously today
tml having fa duties for sports day..
OMG..! the list!
i haven DO!
SHITTT
crapz..
life's liddat =p ciaoz~
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, April 15, 2004
lalabear~
dunno wad has got into me
lala craze
it's a gd sign anyway
i'm more cheerful now
with a little blue only =p
found moreppl to chat with me
drew another pic of lalabear~
love it man...
sometimes ignorance is a bliss
i dun think i am joining hq after sec sch?
maybe even i join i dun wanna be a uniformed volunteer
a little sian of scolding. giving discipline...
lol
wad am i thinking sia....
fabbies fabbies~ u finally online~
=p
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, April 15, 2004
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
know wad?
i went to create a new hotmail acc
lalab3ar@hotmail.com
i born to be someone who love cute stuff
anything wrong?
i mean many cute stuffs are created by males anyway...
i guess i aspire to be one of them as well =p
didnt know this lalabear look pretty cool with 30% opacity on that black flamey bg
the kitty as well of cos!~
hmmm...
somethings in me i really have to push myself to
sad
unhappy
lame
blue
i mean anyway those are not in my today
maybe a little bluish but it's ok!
wu yue tian roxor i tell u...
i like this old songs.. new songs... everything! =p
i like wen rou
i like yong bao
i like chun zen
i like tian tian xiang ni
and most of all i love u =p =.=
that's out of point doinks
so now i have one lalabear... one piakpiakman.. perhaps one kiapkiapman
why kiap... lol... cos my sis right... her crush name inside got this
sounds wierd la lol.. but anyway she kena disturbed by this evil me and i always keep chanting this kiap kiap thingy in front of her... oh well.. that's me =p
bascially i am doing nothing just sitting infront of the computer..
i should really start doing someting that is constructive...
i started remember i read a bk... when i was in pri sch..
very interesting bk..
why?
cos it's about a diary of a teenager
it's different from other bks
i mean actually all bloggers and people who write diary are creating one like this as well..
so see i am make it more interesting isnt it? =p
just wanna be myself sometimes
sometimes be really relaxed with cadets.. forgetting all the formality and wadeva.. just like frens... wanna sing songs with gd frens... wanna feel the breeze at the sea..
wondering why i can write so much despite the fact that i really got nothing to do sometimes...
i think diary can be a form of reflection i guess..
like wad i am doing now... isnt it?
i mean this is already a pretty steady habit to me already...
i can recall wad i wrote in my 'diary' when i was in pri sch... purely dumb... but those were memories... i adore them...
i know this blog will continue... for as long as i can crap... =p
and i will always be typing rubbish like now...
typing rubbish reminds me of my friendster self description! i have written 944 words for gdness sake... that's dumb isnt it? but i've got a sense of achievement =p
really dun believe that i am stil typing this!
ok la... mainly due to the fact that at this time liao no people chat with me so i can keep on typing and typing until i become sian..
anyway now is 12 40 liao..
usually i wake up at 5 58 according to my watch that is always 5 minutes or more faster...
so i suppose got 5+ hours before i wake up to face the sch day again...
awww... boredom...
i think i will be a happier man by loving myself more... not until self centred la i guess...
=]
i wonder if there's still anything more to write for now...
i dun think so..
so finally u all have been relieved from all these torments! =p
bye!
bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
hmmm today..
wad can i say about today...
pretty much the same as every sch day...
but i feel much better today...
not much of negative feelings...
watched that channel 8 show at 9pm one...
made me realised something too
it does hurt sometimes but it's not anyone's fault cos i choose it this way
anyway it's nothing big compared to life and death
not forcing myself to stay strong but learning to stay strong... i guess this is better isnt it?
with a few ( i mean a few but that's really enuff) friends that brighten my life up and everything u know...
ok i owe someone a giftart ( i know u will look at my blog =p)
hmmm... will try my best to draw la hehe... i mean my life will be much more dead and stale without ur presence really. expressing my thank to u haha =p
i supposed i know my feelings better now and i know how to handle it after such a period of time... but i guess i need time to really settle down.
apologising to anyone if i have offended them unknowingly during that period of time when i am not really feeling very gd as myself.
i may still need sometime to settle really...
sometimes may be just a break from this presence...
anyway today doodled a bear...
pretty much like it... i shall post it...
gimme a moment while i upload it...
TADA~
anyway next up, echo's cat!!!!
omg that's really cute
i love its expression
for gdness sake this is solid stuff compared to mine... love ya kitty
i am really learning to be a better person... i will need time... =]
bnn strummed a note at Tuesday, April 13, 2004
yes missed out something just now...
i was on my bed just now and i pondered again
whether i wanna join hq as vi next time
when i was sec 3... that thought was strong for maybe the burning passion
but lately, not because that it died out... just that i wonder if my character of one will hates to be confined and organised, one who wishes to be free and be wad he wants will clash with wad is needed in red cross
i hate leading i hate planning i hate many thing in red cross and i dunno why i like red cross
but watching the cadets grow is perhaps the most fulfilling thing in this leadership...
u see them learn... u see them sweat... u see them cry... u see them smile... in victory...
but can i keep this consistency if i really take up this job as a VI?
can i be spared from these organising and planning
lol..
guess not
i mean i'm not supposed to take shortcut i mean that's a DUH...
but is this suitable for my lifestyle...
seriously i might not wanna be one...
for my character...
but i hope even i dun become one my cadets will still remember me as their nco... hopefully a gd and fulfilling one... all i know is that i am super duper forgetful...
i love u tkrcy cadets =]
now it's really headache to think of who is the top 3..
so headache..
restrained confined and racing agst the time...
but i trust my sec 3s they will steer back in time...
i guess this is wad many of them seek in instructors
i trust them... from now onwards...
lol this sounds like my ending speech for tkrcy life...
i meant every word i mean however... this place... my footprints lingers... my shoutings echoed.. my tears flowed... my blood stained... my laughters...
bnn strummed a note at Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Monday, April 12, 2004
._.
._.
._.
haha...
wad a crazy blog yest...
no i wun delete it... cos i meant it... =.=
wad am i thinking... i also dunno...
nothing much today...
tired...
gotten $50 from father finally...
wonder if i should buy cyndi's or jolin's album...
._.
where is fabian for these 2 days???
need him to rant with... =.=
T-T
my mouth feels so zipped...
my hands feels so tied...
my brain feels so squeezed...
my heart feels so confined...
my legs feels so numbed...
my body feels so sour...
me words feels so shakey...
my thoughts feels so unrested...
my actions feels so unspotted...
my sight feels so blurred...
._.
haha so lame...
bnn strummed a note at Monday, April 12, 2004
i always wanted to show how much i care and i love..
i always do...
i but tot it would be another form of burden to you really..
i wonder why i hold back so much at times... cos it really hurts me actually..
when i wish to show how i love you... i would suddenly think of how it would burden u...
teach me how...
it's so confined... purely mizerable...
i'm not someone who promises my death for u for i must cherish my life
i am not someone will can always give u laugher and warmth but i am always trying to learn...
i am not someone who always manage to cheer u up when u are down but i really wish to learn and i try...
i am not someone who has a very gd temper and so..
but i am someone who love u
i am
._.
this is me
this is me
this is...
forget it.. i choose this way...
and i will remain this way...
this is my way of loving...
this is...
bnn strummed a note at Monday, April 12, 2004
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i love you... i really do...
been always suppressing myself...
just to keep this for myself...
i love you... really...
bnn strummed a note at Monday, April 12, 2004
Sunday, April 11, 2004
blog for now...
um...
actually really nothing to blog...
slept use com slept use com slept use com eat use com eat use com
but today i changed the position my com...
that's not impt just bloody hot and sweaty when i do it... irritating... but more spacious...
blogs...
wads the purpose to have blog...
to show someone wad u are feeling that u normally find it hard to express...?
to say something to someone that u know will see?
i stay i stay i stay..
stay...
i know i will... thru this yr... the rest seriously i dun have the courage to say i will nvr give up... but i know now i am staying... for i know i am staying...
zhe shi wo de wen rou...
anyway u know i am toking?
DOH
that's so obvious that u dun even know wad i am toking about haha...
i bet it's so sick that i am always writing stuff that u dunno and i just keep doing it for my pleasure...
i know i am insignicant in this circle of life but i know i am still one that exist as the same as even the significant ones that eat slp shit
i will live my way...
less than a month...
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 11, 2004
yest no blog...
this is for yest's one
LOL
no blog cos i reach home late then i wait for sis to use com finish but i fell aslp all the way till 7 30 sharp
but i went back to slp again
lol
yest...
normal trg pretty smoothly i guess...
the grp's aop pretty ok i guess...
pretty tired after those...
lost that stupid uniform measurement again... sux to the core man...
wad heng... redid it in no time and heng yf help me recall some sizes if not have to call again then malu =.=
this peacefulness is a little scary tho... dun ask me why...
ok then i went off to taka to meet kino riku and haku...
that's much more cozy than those fuked up outings with me as myself only
4-5 ppl is enuff... had my lunch at yoshinoya and i actually slpt there for a little while =.=
then go to kino(the bkshop =.=) then tok cock sing song then see see look look
the walk back to cineleisure to watch hellboy...
ar that girl so chio
chioooo arrrr
lol
some how i like this movie quite alot even tho some parts dun make sense and hellboy is not all that mighty
i mean, without firestarter, he would have been killed by those hell hounds lol
ok no spoilers
i like some lines in the movie...
cant exactly remember it but
"i'll not be the one who start... but the one who choose wad kind of end i want... i choose!"
i told haku she will swear if she watch the eye 2 cos it's really a waste of money man
i rather watch hellboy 2 times than watch the eye 2
dotz
ok that's all for yesterday... continuing today nite
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 11, 2004
yest no blog...
this is for yest's one
LOL
no blog cos i reach home late then i wait for sis to use com finish but i fell aslp all the way till 7 30 sharp
but i went back to slp again
lol
yest...
normal trg pretty smoothly i guess...
the grp's aop pretty ok i guess...
pretty tired after those...
lost that stupid uniform measurement again... sux to the core man...
wad heng... redid it in no time and heng yf help me recall some sizes if not have to call again then malu =.=
this peacefulness is a little scary tho... dun ask me why...
ok then i went off to taka to meet kino riku and haku...
that's much more cozy than those fuked up outings with me as myself only
4-5 ppl is enuff... had my lunch at yoshinoya and i actually slpt there for a little while =.=
then go to kino(the bkshop =.=) then tok cock sing song then see see look look
the walk back to cineleisure to watch hellboy...
ar that girl so chio
chioooo arrrr
lol
some how i like this movie quite alot even tho some parts dun make sense and hellboy is not all that mighty
i mean, without firestarter, he would have been killed by those hell hounds lol
ok no spoilers
i like some lines in the movie...
cant exactly remember it but
"i'll not be the one who start... but the one who choose wad kind of end i want... i choose!"
i told haku she will swear if she watch the eye 2 cos it's really a waste of money man
i rather watch hellboy 2 times than watch the eye 2
dotz
ok that's all for yesterday... continuing today nite
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 11, 2004
yest no blog...
this is for yest's one
LOL
no blog cos i reach home late then i wait for sis to use com finish but i fell aslp all the way till 7 30 sharp
but i went back to slp again
lol
yest...
normal trg pretty smoothly i guess...
the grp's aop pretty ok i guess...
pretty tired after those...
lost that stupid uniform measurement again... sux to the core man...
wad heng... redid it in no time and heng yf help me recall some sizes if not have to call again then malu =.=
this peacefulness is a little scary tho... dun ask me why...
ok then i went off to taka to meet kino riku and haku...
that's much more cozy than those fuked up outings with me as myself only
4-5 ppl is enuff... had my lunch at yoshinoya and i actually slpt there for a little while =.=
then go to kino(the bkshop =.=) then tok cock sing song then see see look look
the walk back to cineleisure to watch hellboy...
ar that girl so chio
chioooo arrrr
lol
some how i like this movie quite alot even tho some parts dun make sense and hellboy is not all that mighty
i mean, without firestarter, he would have been killed by those hell hounds lol
ok no spoilers
i like some lines in the movie...
cant exactly remember it but
"i'll not be the one who start... but the one who choose wad kind of end i want... i choose!"
i told haku she will swear if she watch the eye 2 cos it's really a waste of money man
i rather watch hellboy 2 times than watch the eye 2
dotz
ok that's all for yesterday... continuing today nite
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 11, 2004
yest no blog...
this is for yest's one
LOL
no blog cos i reach home late then i wait for sis to use com finish but i fell aslp all the way till 7 30 sharp
but i went back to slp again
lol
yest...
normal trg pretty smoothly i guess...
the grp's aop pretty ok i guess...
pretty tired after those...
lost that stupid uniform measurement again... sux to the core man...
wad heng... redid it in no time and heng yf help me recall some sizes if not have to call again then malu =.=
this peacefulness is a little scary tho... dun ask me why...
ok then i went off to taka to meet kino riku and haku...
that's much more cozy than those fuked up outings with me as myself only
4-5 ppl is enuff... had my lunch at yoshinoya and i actually slpt there for a little while =.=
then go to kino(the bkshop =.=) then tok cock sing song then see see look look
the walk back to cineleisure to watch hellboy...
ar that girl so chio
chioooo arrrr
lol
some how i like this movie quite alot even tho some parts dun make sense and hellboy is not all that mighty
i mean, without firestarter, he would have been killed by those hell hounds lol
ok no spoilers
i like some lines in the movie...
cant exactly remember it but
"i'll not be the one who start... but the one who choose wad kind of end i want... i choose!"
i told haku she will swear if she watch the eye 2 cos it's really a waste of money man
i rather watch hellboy 2 times than watch the eye 2
dotz
ok that's all for yesterday... continuing today nite
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 11, 2004
Saturday, April 10, 2004
off for some ranting again
this is so damn too irritating
and why am i still up at this time?
it's 3 31 am now and i am ranting at this stupid blog
cos it's simply irritating
u are being rated at my top 3 irritant
sounds sad but yes it's top 3
for once i know i may be cockeye but no a hollow head
i am ranting at this moment because this is my blog
i say again THIS IS MY BLOG
IDIOTZ...
i know for ppl who are reading this stupid entry dun even know wad a toot i am toking about but obviously it's so irritating...
i'm not gonna tok to much to something i know it's hard to reach
i'll chuck it all up and i think that's a better choice for dummies like me
today rot at home
supposedly go out with pri sch fren
ohohoho
i dun wanna let ppl see my irritated face and soul
so disgusting
like this stupid entry
ranting non stop like an idiot
i wonder if i still have life
i think there are too much electrons in me that i become so negative
i can officially say bye bye in around 2 months time and this face of mine will be more than happy to give u a BLEAHZ
honestly i also dunno wad i am typing...
10 apr now... 31 days lol
._.
i bet most ppl dunno wad i am toking again
like i said b4
THIS IS MY BLOG AND I LOVE TO RANT
i shall change my title to ranting bear
i am so damn lame i know
zzzz
hold my hands~
will you look into my eye~
i know this i am dreaming now~
i know i know~
this isnt true~
just let me be~
just let me be~
loving you oh loving you ohohoh~
i just wanna be~ loving you~~
i know it's hard to break
in fact it's not even here..
how to break~
but i just wanna
love you love you loving you~ ohohoh~
i wanna take ur hands and fly into this world~
of fantasies and hopes~
bnn strummed a note at Saturday, April 10, 2004
Friday, April 09, 2004
some ppl use blog to really write their diary like a daily routine
some just have blog for the sake of keeping up with the trend and actually nvr bother to really update it regularly
i have this blog to rant, that is one of my main purpose.
there's no where else to rant to complain to shit to cock
glad that i have accompany liddat.. haha...
today chatted with fabian in msn... if not i will burst more... here lol...
both of us blog to have our stupid rants up and our fingers pointing to those sinners!
to think my 1st impression of fabian was a sissy, but cmon, if u can live the way he is, then i have nothing to say. one of a kind... and everything else...
fabian.. we will defeat those sinners who look down of us and everything and we shall rant as our hobby~ LOL
so many ppl pissing me off today...
SO MANY...
IRRITATING...
taking me for granted...
scolding me for they are angry (but not at me)
cmon lor.. i may look like a teddy but i am NOT ONE...
some more i am a hot tempered person just that i suppress it down most of the times... try me and u will know wads in for u after suppressing those shit in me for so long...
cant even go out with frens in peace tml... darn it..
tell me last minute and i have to abide to it... wads the prob man...
why must i abide? cos u are angryover something that has nothing to do with me? that's not my prob for gdness sake... zzz..
i have a limit also for gdness sake... =.=
i love to smile i love to joke i love to play... if i can, frowning, fretting and wadeva negative shit i will dump it into the bloody bin
reminds me that the sec 3s are taking over soon
HOW?!
tell me... i wonder if any of my sec 3s do actually know such a blog of mine exist
if they do:
sec 3s, 2 months can seem to be so long, 60+ days u know
long
but cmon time just ticks away like nobody's business
dun reach an extent that u dunno how to teach ur cadets...
if i can teach u all anything now i will do my best to
but pls show me that u all wanna learn.
if u all are not worried about the unit
i tell u i AM WORRIED!
there are times where i can play and relax and joke
but when it comes to trg and discipline i wan everyone to be super duper serious
take it as 2 different thing.
let me step down in pls for gdness sake...
bnn strummed a note at Friday, April 09, 2004
Thursday, April 08, 2004
today...
also nothing much...
father dun have his car with him so nvr brnig me out... no money... no $50... dang it...
went to 7-11 after sch... so glad that yf look so much better liao... =D
ar... life's liddat... sad or happy there can be... there's or smile that we have to take... without tears, smiles are nvr being cherished. without smiles, tears will drown life into a miserable state...
today is bright... brighter than yest... thanks to those peeps who chat with me and drove away my boredom and blues~ haha
anyway to share this:
when life gives you a thousand reasons to cry,
show that you have a million and one reasons to
smile.. keep smiling and enjoy life no matter
how hard it may seem...=)
hmmm... true right?
smile! SMILE!!!!!!!
that's about it la... haha
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, April 08, 2004
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
To yf:
infinite apologies wun pay for ur effort and my neglience in this planning... but i still gonna say one sorry...
anyway... been always reading ur blog... didnt dare to tok to u these few days... definitely no way this proposal will be in the dustbin... NO WAY... planning...
this was posted in ur tagboard anyway...
and all along i have been reading ur blogs... ._.
i seriously dunno wad to say for today...
but edwin's been really understanding...
thanks alot edwin...
something i learnt... from edwin... yh... huda... and yf...
really learnt...
anyway something heart warming today is that xiu wen rgs chair added me in frenster and dropped me a msg...
pretty heartwarming msg... didnt expect someone whom i didnt know so well to gimme that...
really grateful to u xiu wen!
bnn strummed a note at Tuesday, April 06, 2004
Monday, April 05, 2004
dunno why...
the urge to study is getting up...
it's rushing up...
great feel... nice momentum...
i will work hard....
anyway...
it's kinda late and long... but i really wish to apologise to yf for not helping out in the planning for the trg...
sorry for being so selfish...
i know it's lame and dumb to say sorry now and just in the blog only..
actually wanted to call to apologise... but...
was hoping u can see if u carelessly click on this stupid blog or wad...
really sorry... >_<
REALLY!
T-T
bnn strummed a note at Monday, April 05, 2004
Sunday, April 04, 2004
today...
haircut...
today...
sgma outing...
ok lor...
nothing much...
i'm always contradicting myself but u know...
i am lame and indifferent at times...
TEACH ME PLS...
dotz....
so late liao must slp soon....
DOTZ....
=.=
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 04, 2004
yesterday was doing some board for the bazaar...
forget it... thrown away after the event... wads the pt of staying up till 3am to do something that is to be thrown away...
confused and blue...
today had the event
pretty fun pretty cool... had fun playing our own game.... =.=
no money liao..
nvm it's for charity....
but when outside expo and took some breather...
the senario is so similar haha...
i mean... inside it's so noisy so chaotic... but outside is simply u have to keep urself composed...
felt better and more refreshed after that actually
had 5 cups of ice cuppocino... =.=
so pretty energetic until now...
lame i know...
best thing i learnt today is having a bunch of cadets is something i really like and really cherish... i love them ok! i mean they make me feel that i exist in this world actually...
anywayz... special thanks to leemin lim pon and those who helped me do the sandwich boards...
tml will be a better day...
i know i'll be...
anyway...
just for laughs
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, April 04, 2004
Friday, April 02, 2004
hmmm...
tried some more design for this webbie...
how does it look now???
anyway... today also pretty long day actually..
tml even longer...
just to side track:
Red Cross International Bazaar @ Singapore Expo Hall 4 on 3rd April 10am-10pm. Game Stalls, Souvenir Stalls, Food Stalls from local and overseas. Support Us!!!
this one got mediacorp artistes... got performances all that also...
today even alittle moody but now is +ve!
did a stupid poster for this event... i know i suck at designing...
T-T
hmmmm...
wad am i thinking now... ya...
u know?
dun think so...
haiz...
i mean no haiz...
life is heavier with haiz so dump it into the bin and nvr recycle it.. haha
heez!
why am i so lame today?
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syndrome of retardedness...
end of lameness test... =.=
bnn strummed a note at Friday, April 02, 2004