Monday, January 09, 2006

gawd i have nothing to update today.
i mean the drawings.
but was learning maya and helping ame out with illustrator pretty much this afternoon and evening.

right now
i'm just so damn confused about my religious beliefs.

lol..

bla not a topic i'd love to go into.


lately i've been feeling extremely stupid.
stupid over myself.
i cant stand the way i am

i mean.
i dun even know wad is this.

i'm not even looking back
but when it just face that..
the stupid feeling comes back again

i dun even know if i haven already forgotten the..
i think pretty much so
but that STUPID feeling just LINGERS

i mean that..
mellow yet sad
numb yet pain

blah
that's about it


ok
i've been pretty much
slapping myself
in terms of drawing, not really drawing
i mean life.

yea
and other stuff
just like many...

'cmon dun be stupid's

i'm trying to tell myself that sitting infront of the com
that me isnt at the true state of me

me alone in this world
without this comp
wont think like this

i am serious about this and i am dead serious

lol

bleh.

i wonder wad i should get
or should i even get them..
hmm