Monday, September 12, 2005

i wonder

is time a factor?


seemingly not

yet.
as time goes by
will u wonder if time had placed its role in all these?

long and short
short and long

how short a time can cause a big change
how long a time and find a gradual change

will my stand hold?
will my view change?



the above words flew thru my mind
spun over
and over again.

of course. it sounded cold in me.

apparently that wasnt all to it...

i didnt struggle.
it's clear cut.


i just know at this very moment i feel like this
i think like this...
it's been sometime since like this..
but...


well i dunno
wad i know is, i can guarantee the very moment i have but not the future.

future is unknown.
we get a glimpse of it vaguely if we are hardworking enough.
or perhaps to the next extreme end.
but we cant guarantee..


of course
i am shaken many many many times.
so?
i also dunno...

maybe sometimes it's good to hold on to one faith...
i believe i will last...
at perhaps till then.

the urge is strong.
yet the will is soft

soft is not weak.
it heals the urge.

perhaps at this moment... 1.10am
i felt strong... deeply...
._.


i'm sorry.