Sunday, September 04, 2005

i was awoken in a sense

as a bled.

was cutting the mounting board for some experiment.
put my index finger too far out
the pen knife just glide across

i look at the fallen piece of flesh
look back at my finger
blood oozed out.

my 1st reaction wasnt ouch

'oh it's bleeding'
well i think i looked as if nothing happened
but placed my finger into my mouth.

sucked.
i looked at the finger again. no more blood for that second.
and then more blood came out.

i kinda repeated the process until the bleeding stopped.

the moment i know it has stopped.
yet another set of emotion came in.
ok pain should be the word. not really very pain.
not really.

it's just a minor cut i supposed
but bleeding lasted for like 5 min?

why do i write so much crap just for a miserable cut?
i dunno

every now and then i will look at the cut again
looks very nicely sliced and smooth.
i thought it was wet as it's a little shiny, yea i said it's a smooth cut.

seemingly just an accident
yet again it feels like a reminder
a weird... weird reminder...
to wad?

i dunno.
but i get the feeling that this cut is reminding me of something.

maybe it's asking me to be more cautious and mindful
maybe...

yet again
is it trying to tell me
it doesnt matter to get hurt a little once in a while?

weird... weird...


well i do give alot of thought to such trivial stuff dont i?
=x