Sunday, September 04, 2005

i took a closer look
actually it didnt stop bleeding...

it's slowly slowly bleeding
if i ever touch or try to remove the little bit of blood left.

the pain is not extreme
it is not fast and direct

the pain slowly comes and linger


um though i find that show abit crappy
but a quote from ma xiaoling made me think
"don't all friends start as strangers?"

today
i felt the silent cries.

like last time.
it wasnt of any significance
just like now.

um i can picture it
like...
taking a blunt ballpoint pen
u put a line across on ur arm
very very hard line
till it becomes reddish and hot at the start
u see the streak of blue ink line too

followed by the blood.

it reminds me of the times when i like to poke myself with ballpoint pen until i bleed in primary sch

sometimes it's just so hard to say something until u must find a way to feel better
uh...

haven i learn from the past?
cmon......


um.. maybe i should tone down on such entries.
i should draw more instead.. hmmm