Saturday, May 07, 2005

couldnt resist it so i posted again here
originally wanted to wait for huda to make me a new skin b4 i blog

here's some summary of my life and thoughts

i entered DMD officially
i passion towards this goal increased significantly
on the contrary, i decided to chuck rc aside subconsciously
yh posted something today, i understand wad he meant but i dunno how to react
i will not tell myself that it is wrong of me not to participate and volunteer
i will not as myself who will do it if i dun
i perhaps will only ask, will red cross hinder the path i am taking now?

in me, i dun see angel or devil
but a goal and objective that is clear to me
i must excel in my course and do the best i can

i choose to give up certain things in my life to achieve it

i choose to think of the downside of something i liked to make myself feel better in a way
in a way i am sick of red cross
let's make it a simpler way, if i dun help myself, WHO WILL?
i am going all out to be as good as i can
i am going to surpass my potentials and be even better

red cross cant help me in this
sad to say that i may sound cruel and unfeeling


drawing and my course is my top priority for now. and definitely for my future too
i shall work towards it