Saturday, April 17, 2004

i dunno wad to say

i dunno

maybe everything since the start i've had in mind was all wrong

i guess i'm really not someone of leadership qualities

i dunno how to communicate
i dunno how to think of others
i dunno how to think logically
i dunno how to motivate others
i dunno how to face facts
i dunno how to calm down...
i dunno how to focus...
i dunno how to distribute work
i dunno how to draw a line
i dunno how to endure
i dunno how to optimise resource
i dunno how to be optimistic
i dunno how to let people be convinced about wad i do
i dunno how to let people know that i'm not a superman
i dunno how to let people know that i need help
i dunno how to open my mouth really hard..
i dunno how to...

i thought i could be of some use when people really need help..
i'm not complaining or wad now.. there's no one i can blame..

i hate myself for not communicating..
i really tried to.. i guess... i failed..

i've been always waiting for people to plan with me when i realised that i should be the one who motivate others to be my team
i always forget..
i am always so nosy and taking up things that i do not require
putting extra effort when it's not needed
in the end complaining to others that i wasnt appreciated

i nvr create that bond and trust i should..
why do i realise it until now????

i'm seriously not making any sense..

i dunno how to advance..
i dunno how now..

......
i dun wish to give up..
i'm just tired..

dun give me up..
dun...

perhaps i can think properly tml..
perhaps i should use my time to reflect tml...
it's really time i have to reflect..

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