Thursday, July 26, 2007
i feel stuck.
i feel as if i'm still stuck in the past.
the past where you were there.
i knew i have to get out.
but i'm still stuck now.
it'll still take time.
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, July 26, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
hmm stan's bday celebration today!
so HAPPYBDAY STAN LOL =x
hmmmmmmmm
on the whole i enjoyed today
bla.
i felt that i have alot to say but suddenly dunno wad to type.
till then.
bnn strummed a note at Monday, July 23, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
clearing up the room today.
still quite abit left.
i found the following items. that had some significance.
my nikon s1 camera
all artbooks and guitar books.
one unread investing book.
carpenter's album
new dvd burner.
some guitar tabs and chords i printed.
ang pow money + personal savings.
scattered drawings from a folder all over the place (no idea why)
left over super sculpey that i bought.
your letters and drawing.
your address on my small notebook.
regarding all these items i'll talk about it in the next post.
but your letters and drawings...
hm.
i tidied my stuff to one extent that i felt
1) lazy to
2) lost about how i should tidy it and what i should throw.
so i said to my mum:' uh i tidy until i dunno how to tidy liao'
she said: 'throw away wads not needed and what you dun want lor.'
but for some reason i still haven clear up all my stuff now lying all around which extends to the living room.
should i throw ur stuff away?
i guess. only when i am able to throw them all away then i'll be able to let go.
but for now i cant.
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, July 22, 2007
Saturday, July 21, 2007
hm.
it's been pretty long.
time is needed.
4 34am lol.
talk more maybe tml hm.
bnn strummed a note at Saturday, July 21, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
post 416.
the mrt track cats (ideas copyrighted by bnn dun even think of it lol)
there were no records. no clues of these normal looking animal.
cats.
some how they just had a different air around them. especially those under the mrt tracks.
sitting with their limbs underneath the body just like a body of fur with a head.
as in they have live thru their lives thoroughly.
nothing escapes their eyes.
they aint really idling.
looking for a moment.
looking for a chance.
for us to notice this unique air around them.
little do we know wad these creatures are.
bla.
restless mind. restless mind.
put my restless mind to peace
bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, July 18, 2007
if you are grant a chance to either go back in time 1 year or catch a glimpse of what you will be like in 10 years. what will you choose?
cmon answer me readers lol.
i personally dunno yet.
if it's earlier i'd probably choose go back 1 yr. cos i'll be able to get away from u.
but now hm... a lil too late. 10 years later might be a good choice.
enough of that.
work is killing me.
i seriously need to kick the habit of slping late (1.35am now)
yeung pls come back asap to save ur dying friend. lol
what am i supposed to say.
good luck on finding ur ipod if u actually do read my blog.
bla.
zzzzzzzzzzz time
bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
yay had buffet with my fyp groupmates and ms grace + friend at novena
food choice: so so. will comment later on
taste: ok, passable, not fantastic. beef in particular tends to be overcooked.
atmosphere: not bad, since we're sitting outside where there's a 'waterfall' a wall that water falls. wadeva LOL. pretty cooling. inside looks hmmmm kinda normal. whitish and palace-ish.
price: for the food choice and taste it seems way to ex. 36+++? thanks to our dear ms grace, we can have this dinner free. thanks again!
fun meeting with these peeps once again woot.
lately this unknown mellow feeling has been following me.
i gather there are a few reasons
1) too much looping of theme of love by nobuo uematsu. a lovely piece of music he made for FFIV. his earlier works are better. anyway this song isnt terribly sad but it gives u a tinge of reluctance to let go of something.
2) involved in too much time-related story/games/tv chrono trigger, cross, to get unstuck in time, the girl who leapt thru time, split second. makes me think alot about the past present and future.
3) i need my well deserved breaks. fyp and iap have been draining my motivation, inspiration, willpower, positivity in full speed. cmon it's week 8. 5 MORE WEEKS CMON!
4) i haven got over you and i gather it'll really take some solid time to get it done and over with.
5) my chio supervisor is gone so motivation lvl drops to abyss of no return LOL
okok.
2 am.
that must be the last reason why i feel nua and stuff. =]
good night
bnn strummed a note at Monday, July 16, 2007
Friday, July 13, 2007
post 413
been drowning myself in instrumentals
to the extent i dun really feel like listening to pop song
been starting to really appreciate more music
significance of music has grew in my life.
been exploring the difference between my left and right hand. fingers in particular.
anyway back to life,
tower defence stage 3
the lowest level looking yet the highest lvl in terms of difficulty has finally arrived in town.
i'm dying with that 'job'
it's killing my eyes. lol
bla i dun sound talkative do i?
ummm...
i dreamt about u again
i smsed u but u replied in a way trying to shove me off.
like 'wad i am busy now'
lately all dreams regarding u have turned negative.
lol zzzz
bnn strummed a note at Friday, July 13, 2007
Monday, July 09, 2007
bnn's definition of artist block:
unlike common misconception, you still can draw, perhaps u still can draw well.
but u are not comfortable with wad u're drawing.
u feel that u've reach a bottleneck.
impressive stuff cant seem to impress you anymore
you dun seem to impress urself anymore too
you rethink where your passion lies.
what you really wanna express
what you really wanna create.
but the thing is u have no answer yet.
people if you have all the above symptoms
like me, you're probably having artist block.
1 13am.
bnn strummed a note at Monday, July 09, 2007
Sunday, July 08, 2007
hm..
forgot to mention something.
i was on the escalator when i saw the big screen in cineleisure
some trailer where there's umm... yang qian hua. the girl u know ummm shit forgot the english name.
she reminded me of u.
90%
bla.
4 months.
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, July 08, 2007
the post that was posted in normal time
bla lousy title LOL
lemme think how i should start off.
1) the dream that woke me up is amazing seriously. i was an ummm rpg character i guess. well at least it looked like that. but more of those chinese kungfu novel kind. so i was about to challenge the shaolin monk. i charged towards him and commenced the battle. fierce and fast. strong winds blowing like crazy lol. when i woke up realising it was really stormy and windy outside. that was ard 8am++ that i went to slp again.
2) forgot to bring my ez link card OUT AGAIN. wtf is this. i realised every fortnight i'll forget to bring it at least ONCE. nvm i'll kick that habit off.
3) ok hmmm nothing important. my buddy vincent and i ate in yoshinoya before the movie. beef bowls of course. he and i cleared the whole bottle of the chilli powder. well i took ard... at the very least 2/3 of it. blame them for increasing the price of the beef bowl to 6.20
4) the banana who flew through time. i mean the girl who leapt through time. uh it's was really not bad. the concept and stuff. one big plus point was the backgrounds that they painted was really nice. i like makoto's house (the exterior shot everytime).
the story was not what i expected. but i did read from desmond's blog that this movie is great. oh to add on, i watched it at the 1st row. anyway hm... it's not those big time travel saga or heart wrenching tragedy if u're looking for. it's to me some... hmmm... personal experiences. pretty sweet pretty heartwarming. anyway the 1st half of the story is quite hilarious.
generally, very worth watching if u're finding something out of the norm (i mean live action movies and 3d animation like duh right) in theatres. refreshing.
spoiler alert
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i just dun really understand how chiaki get the last chance to go back in time
can someone enlighten me? -glares at desmond-
anyway this sucks. can someone explain to me why the bloody hell must they allocate SUCH A SMALL THEATRES TO ANIME? IS THERE ANYTHING WRONG WITH ANIME THAT THEY HAVE TO SCREEN IN SUCH A SMALL THEATRE?! damn it -.-
5) chrono cross -.- wtf i pissed myself quite abit of times. i'm still not used to the battle system sometimes that i will accidentally heal enemies (actually the cursor to point at who u're targetting is not very obvious). so today i played and encountered a difficult boss. 1st time i almost lost AND i healed it accidentally. so i realised i had no chance against it. then i re started the fight after some adjustments of spells and equipment. yay the 2nd time was way easier.
got out of the place and i SWEAR i saved.
due to some reasons i decided to re load the game. my hard fought battle was down the drain. the boss's not dead and i didnt fight him. neither my game was saved ( I REALLY SWEAR I DID).
nothing to say. if i can do some time leaps maybe that'll help me.
lol
long posts. =o
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, July 08, 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
eh last morning i dreamt of myself..
just gotten a girlfriend! woot! that totally rocked. like one of the best dreams or something recently.
it's like hm. this girl (well if u watch the previous channel u 10pm drama, to get unstuck in time, it's the girl shi jing. dun ask me why it's her. as if i can create my own dream.)
we've been going out for sometime but i dun feel like i really love her
so i told her i think we shouldnt continue.
some drama mama thing then i decided to tell her that this period of absence has made me realise i do love u LOL
wtf and so we got together. woot.
ok la the thing about this is... i woke up feeling refreshed instead of those heavy and dull dreams that drains my life away literally.
nice man.
yay chrono trigger completed. but..... i didnt do the side quests la. way too time consuming. maybe i should find the part about ummm the burning orphanage, a plot that leads to the sequel, chrono chross.
chrono trigger is really perhaps too short i feel but i think it's solid leh. 12 yrs ago wtf.
anyway
reply to yee feng. oie ur reply at ur tagboard hor -.-
can slap u annot ar if not u slap urself ar. wad not insignificant sia.
i miss u leh. when can come out. weekends or wadsnot. if u scared 1 to 1 then we ask papa and ah hock la LOL.
no worries mannnnnn cmon cmonn
=o another considerably long post tonight.
1 50am.
bnn strummed a note at Friday, July 06, 2007
Thursday, July 05, 2007
post 408
no no long posts.
just updating.
lol.
hmmm
at zanarkand progress: i'd say 20% in terms of tab memorising is 25% but skill is u know lol.
hm wad else.
lemme talk about my work.
ok pretty supervisor gone =[
nvm life has to go on.
recently my workload is like tower defense in warcraft.
for those who dunno wad it is:
you are supposed to defend ur 'core/base/heart' from waves and waves of monsters (difficulty increases each wave) by building towers, upgrading them to ensure that they are efficient enough to kill those stupid monsters.
clear enough?
that explain my workload.
last wk's last 2 work day i thought wow i felt free for the 1st time but wtf.
this wk the new wave. back with more forces (no starscream =[)
more difficulty. tighter deadlines.
well. one nice guy there la, no sarcasm when i mean by nice here anyway
he's malay and he's doing some chinese comic so he said to me right at 6 20pm today.
'eh if u free can help me put the chinese text? i've done 8 pages and doing the rest now'
ummm
well i said i'll try to squeeze some time.
currently having how many projects lemme think. 1 2 3 plus my usual workload i'll count it as 4
+ that will be 5. now i'm like a bittorent seeder trying to squeeze some connection to the users all over the place HAHA.
ok that being said, the positive side is that i'm given more important tasks. i'm more trusted (i hope?)
that's to design some characters for some animation thing. no details to be said of course. but great learning experience.
ok back to the line.
'eh if u free can help me put the chinese text? i've done 8 pages and doing the rest now'
my heartfelt reply would be: i'm not free i'm at least worth 500 a month here. but i can try to squeeze some time for u =]
eh wth i typed so much! hmmm. 408 is a nice number.
anyway i successfully gotten chrono chross. yay excited. played for a while and still find the colors astonishing. it's a work 8 yrs ago. or i would say 9-10 yrs ago considering it's actually published 8 yrs ago. woot!
i'd love to learn one of it's nicest song, radical dreamer.
oh anyway my favorite female RPG character is not tifa, yuffie, aeris or wads not but still kid from chrono cross.
cos she's hot! LOL um.. i mean cute.
ok long post. that's it.
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, July 05, 2007
Monday, July 02, 2007
feeling sick after using too much computer.
i literally mean by that.
i played chrono trigger for way too long till i lose my focus everytime i look at the screen that i have to squint now.
very bad.
i have to limit myself properly.
well i'm still did my freelance too, on a very nauseated mode (like how i am blogging now).
but hmmm chrono trigger is a nice rpg with some interesting story so i played on.
plus it was the prequel of chrono cross, my 2nd favorite, if not favorite rpg game as far as i remembered.
that being said, i started dling, oops i mean... getting chrono cross again to know the story better.
why, i didnt even know the story la. cos.. i was young LOL.
but to me at that time the gfx and colors were absolutely captivating.
i think my guitaring has been improving constantly. just need to push a lil more.
train more pinky and i should be able to play and sing goodbye days in no time.
whee.
that's it for today.
slping real soon.
feeling giddy.
bnn strummed a note at Monday, July 02, 2007