Thursday, November 30, 2006
i had a nightmare.
it was the first time i dream so vividly of .
to be honest. what i dream of is nothing really scary.
but it is scary to me.
i was non existence to.
in fact in reality it's all the same.
why do i have to see this even in my dream.
bla.
doesnt matter.
nightmare will finish.
obstacle will be crossed.
i'll need a lil bit of time to sort them out.
bnn strummed a note at Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
nothing beats loving a person who loves u more than u love him.cuz it hurts to be taken for granted.n u ended being e victim when u got to leave the person..it's a game of love that people always said.quoted from feng jie's blog post.
some how this line speaks to me. though it doesnt really fit me.
subconsciously i still look out for.
subconsciously i still hope for the existence.
but bleh.
prism shield! 'on~ on~ on~ onnn~'
bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Monday, November 27, 2006
it's monday.
i will be better onwards.
but.
i'm lost.
go drop or pick it up again.
if you're me.
what you'd do?
wadeva it is.
bnn strummed a note at Monday, November 27, 2006
Friday, November 24, 2006
lemme stay in this slump till the end of this week.
somehow my premonition never goes wrong.
or is it, that i'm the one who create these.
i love this feeling of wanting to cry
yet i hate the feeling of wanting to cry but not being able to.
yet everything as trivial as they can be really.
i'm as well, just as exaggerated as i can be, really.
i know i'm only like this when i'm facing myself.
so it's okay.
i mean.
no.
i'll blame myself for anything that comes.
but still it isnt grave.
the voice from my headphone tells me to walk on and be strong.
with the drumbeats and the guitar strummings.
whenever now it's you i stopped.
the sight of you is frosted.
it's not you but it's me.
even stray cats look at me as i walk past.
it's okay.
i got them all typed down.
for i have no one to rant to like this really.
thanks blog.
come and go. on and off. it's all part of life.
maybe i deserve another place in another time.
i'm ok.
4 12am and getting emo.
typing stuff i dun even know wad they mean.
yet i get the feeling off.
thanks YUI and her It's happy line.
bnn strummed a note at Friday, November 24, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
still feeling very unrested.
tml when i wake up will be bettter.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
acquaintance and stranger.
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bnn strummed a note at Monday, November 20, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
drowning in sakurai's voice and the drums, electric guitar and all over.
thanks bal ALOTTTTTttttt................................ =o
mr children literally sing my foul mood out and lemme indulge in a very amazing sense of pleasure.
dun get me wrong.
spin spin spin.
it feels good to be alone listening to misuchiru~
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, November 19, 2006
it feels like being a file.
just a normal file in ur com.
like... a picture
a song.
a text file.
more and more files just pile up.
more
and more.
and more.
and one day u decide to back up ur files
so u decided to clean up those unneccesary files.
some how those misc files just get deleted
then sometimes it gets retrieved somehow thinking to be of some use.
then u delete them away cos it just doesnt fit into any folders u create.
yea and u certainly dun feel anything cos it's so insignificant.
haha.
so being purposeless ur job is to not do anything
at all?
did i say that when i blog it isnt a good thing?
somehow.
as i was typing.
i was wondering that i should learn to communicate with a wall so i wont feel pented up at times.
but i realised. i have my guitar.
i have a cathay coupon.buy one get one free.anyone wanna go for a movie?lastly, lyrics from my dear YUI
It's Happy Line.Who am I living for?The cloudy days pass me by.This weakness, this pain:Do I feel all of it, or just a little?I drowned myself in memories, but it didn't help.So I'll start living for today.But even if I'm a bit lost, yeah, yeahBefore dawn, the twinkling stars vanished.I wonder: are they really gone?Or will they be back tomorrow?Tomorrow never knowsIt's Happy Line.What should I believe in?My life flies past me and I don't even know it.No matter what the night brings,Please, don't frown.Everyone has happy faces and voices,I wonder if I can see them.But even if I can't laugh, yeah, yeah.I've found my courage at last.I saw your red eyes and I tried to laugh.Tomorrow never knowsIt's Happy Line.I drowned myself in memories, but it didn't help.So I'll start living for today.But even if I'm a bit lost, yeah, yeahBefore dawn, the twinkling stars vanished.I wonder: are they really gone?Or will they be back tomorrow?Tomorrow never knowsIt's Happy Line.that's about it =]
bnn strummed a note at Sunday, November 19, 2006
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
ktv outing with kino and balhaza yest.
ar totally feels great. super long time nvr sing like that.
haha.
sometimes
it's like flying kite.
at times u feel that u are within the grasp.
at time u feel totally lost.
actually i always feel that i have so many things to type.
but in the end it always become so vauge and little.
haha. -.-
on the whole, life's getting real nice.
bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Saturday, November 11, 2006
left the parcel behind me
but yes still re emphasising the fact that i lost 13.5 KG!
many times
we say it's hard to do it.
all aspect of life.
so we dun do it.
and we complain to people that we achieve nothing even when we want to.
i slapped it on myself.
after seeing my health going down.
i believe in no time my health will be better.
MUCH better.
target: 80kg by end of my 'contract'. i know harold's counting.
i look forward to it.
AND I MUST SUCCEED.
bnn strummed a note at Saturday, November 11, 2006
warm tears cooled down to become sharp icicles.
uh sight just hurt me
totally.
felt lost.
uh.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
that me really sucks.
well.
no 'if only's
cos we need to move on.
i shall learn to be a better person again.
speaking of which.
13.5 kg in 53 days. healthy diet. no starving.
bnn strummed a note at Saturday, November 11, 2006