Tuesday, September 27, 2005

i thought to myself again suddenly.

i need to roam further in my thoughts a little more.

why?
cos i am still like dreaming.
i need to realise.
to realise.

so i won't do things that harm myself and others.

i think
i am conditioned in a way that i am warned not to give people trouble.
maybe last time i used to think that my existence alone is perhaps trouble to people.
cos i see people mocking at me and giving me weird looks for my size.

like in the crowd, during sports day, in the lift
that feeling is choking.

it still does exist at times.
but i learn to take it more easily.

but i still do ask myself if i am giving people trouble.


wad is trouble?
trouble can be in so many form.
i dunno wad kind of trouble i will give.


thus i think
but i do get paranoid.


and now i wonder
wad kind of trouble do i give myself now?
i dunno.

hmmm...


i just need to be more clear minded.


it's just like
the higher you climb...
the harder you fall...

ouch?