Sunday, June 27, 2004

hmmmm
tried to change the interface of the bloggie but it looks sucky

so now i added the archive stuff
feel free to view it

anyway

i got a new gmail account
dotdotman@gmail.com

it's 1 GIG
i say again
1 GIG!
of free space

lalalalalalala


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Saturday, June 26, 2004

7.5 hours of torture
5 continuous lessons
5 repeated identical content
1 miserable 1 hour hunch break

no pay
NO PAY

yes it's gone
sec 1 ug camp is so noobishly done
the campfire is so noobish
cmon
no cheers no nothing
forget it

=.=

mother met with an accident...
a car knocked her down when it was steering behind
she fell on her head
had a few stitches..

glad that nothing serious happened...
if there is i wun know wad to do...
=x

nothing much to blog
didnt go out today
rot
yup...
it's a gd rest
but come to think of it
monday starts sch..
i can see her again...
wheee
=.=

hey...
did i say i dreamt of her again..
uber wierd dream..
it's not very vivid but i remember seeing her face..
so sweet
if i didnt remember wrongly i also saw a leg near or on my face
=.=
wads that..


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Wednesday, June 23, 2004

day camp is over
it's just day camp..
the sec 3s sorta took it

it's over

hmmmmmm

true from my words..
how bad a day may be..
sad for that point can be...
but stand up when it's time to be..
hopes are what we'll see

i hope the sec 3s learnt from this little leadership training lol

nothing much to say
reaching this point

i remembered when i was in ulc

there was a lecture about team
how a team is being formed and how it will be separated

it's reaching the adjourning stage...
where my purpose is completing
where hearts have to be settled for other challenges

i feel that i'm at peace now...
lol

i'm not dying
=.=


bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, June 23, 2004



Monday, June 21, 2004

i always create mess for myself

but i know this is gonna be over soon...

the world has got no useless man
only lazy man <=== sadly me

this solitary habit is gonna kill me in the society

but i seem to get along well with people like riku
it's even like when we are alone together we can tok alot

this solitary habit..
it's a must to fit into the world i am in now
but wad about future...
dang..
the future is still blur
meaning..
i am still in such a dilenma of my abilities

funny sounding but it's true

while finding fault in others
i need to identify the biggest fault in me that will fuel me to change thoroughly if i choose to...

it's gonna be hard and pain and sacrificing

no idea

i dunno wad i'm gonna choose

oh yes
b4 i forget..
i dreamt again
of cos different dream this time round
normally i would imagine how she would look like if she put her hair down
and i wanted to see it so damn much...
and wow... it appeared in my dream...
looks amazingly rebonded but not flat and stupid looking
it's a dream i know, but really beautiful... lol

i know everytime when ck toks to me in relaxing manner over a considerably serious matter, it's a bad thing
so will tml be a better day?
i hope so...

was looking at other blogs' tagboards earlier on
realised that this tagboard is cold
lol
but i'm used to it
artworks, lyrics or anything that is related to me is usually cold
is that a hint to the fault i am finding all along?

funny thoughts nowadays
it's ok
it's already gd that i have one thing off my mind and another ending soon

i'm glad
i've learnt
but i've not disciplined myself enuff yet
like wad riku said
he's been disciplined alot thru drawing
me too
but i guess both of us need that breakthru in us

i tok alot today
cos i dun wanna shut my com down
as i will as soon as i finish posting this
=.=

long time since i visit flaw's blog...
time to see see look look... lol


'm using alot of 'magical sounding' terms isnt it lol
nah
so lame
irc nicks
get it?
=.=

i myself, bnn, banana, banyunyu
wadeva u call
=.=

fine fine
i should stop here
cant even stand myself now
LAME


bnn strummed a note at Monday, June 21, 2004



Sunday, June 20, 2004

...

i detest this unknown silence of threat
i detest it



bnn strummed a note at Sunday, June 20, 2004



Friday, June 18, 2004

........

honestly i feel sick
i'm thinking on wad i shouldnt be thinking or neednt be thought of

initiative makes the world go round

but wad if it has gone wrong
i dunno
i sudden recalled dreaming about someone dying

it's vivid
died in a house where i am in it
but i left her there
and i went on to do other things
while i, in the dream, worrying at every moment of wad i should do to her

eventually i did nothing

that part was really vivid


is it trying to tell me something..?



unknown pain really
or rather is some i wouldnt wan to know
very dense and stale...
is human bond so feeble?

or if i have to put it in another perspective is that..
there must be a reason for bond and if it cease to exist, the bond is gone

i guess so..
honestly stuck on this

while i'm saying that people are stuck over relationships
isnt it the same?

i dunno..


bnn strummed a note at Friday, June 18, 2004



Thursday, June 17, 2004

lol...
the kid looks like it's being engulfed in the blue flame
pure hell
=.=
well...

he will live well


bnn strummed a note at Thursday, June 17, 2004


done another work
not very well received
=.=
nvm

haiz

self demoralising again
crapz

i'm not gonna be down by such little crap

continuing soon

yest went out with riku and haku

the went pass fast...
real fast

riku told me things about the mindset of art..
it's true sometimes and it made me ponder alot..
is it my excuses or wad...
....



back to ponders..


bnn strummed a note at Thursday, June 17, 2004



Tuesday, June 15, 2004

am i being abnormal or wad
is it true that u have to be sad about relationships in this age to be normal being

i guess not
but i see dozens of people around me getting troubled over such stuff

i may be seen as shallow
but sad to say i've been thru that period of blues especially for relationships
although i do not experience relationship b4
i certainly can do analyse more than quite a lot of people
not to brag about this =.=

but the thing is
wad i feel, hardest part of a relationship or being involved in such is to take and give

taking is hard... it takes courage to give it a go to just put them on u. it is also hard as you might not know where and how much u wanna weigh it in u

giving it, doesnt really mean giving it up. but to know when to let go when it is right to
many people dun, ended up being misled by the blurred purpose or desire from the reason they take
confused, sad and frustrated...
numb about relationships and all

in another perspective, we are only teenagers
yes a teenager can experience alot
but it is definitely true that the experience is nothing much compared to the real society
that is true reality
a test of character and relationship will truely be at that age

maybe it's something to do with my background
i've seen how my mother in the past, a frail woman who love her husband faithfully as a housewife, into an independent woman who can take care of her family without her husband

i guess such pain is wad people like us can nvr experience
i dun wanna go into deeper details...

thinking back, are wad we are going thru really alot?
i dun really think so
so is there a need to fret for such?

i'm not really a jovial person but i am glad i think alot on my own
i think self reflection is an important part of life
i've learn alot from myself and i am glad of that

of cos, i do live in fantasies and dreams too sometimes, but i dun indulge or live it as my reality

it's a growing process
everyone is different
i'm different

haha...
that's my reflection for today...
gd luck~


bnn strummed a note at Tuesday, June 15, 2004



Monday, June 14, 2004

so gd to see riku and kino and co again
lol
so fun with them
esp riku and his crazy stuffs...
anyway...
nothing much to blog today...
blogging more tml



bnn strummed a note at Monday, June 14, 2004



Sunday, June 13, 2004

5 days nvr blog...
mainly cos my com reformatted...
everything gone everything lost...
my 1.5 gig of unwatched anime...
and artworks
important cca notes..
=.=

i felt lost when i turned on the empty com...

totally no mood
i cant even use it for 1 hour and i'm sick of it...
nvm... i downloaded photoshop also and i finally know how to use pen tool liao...
very useful tool but sometimes very slow and tedious...

argh...

so long nvr see her liao...
kinda miss that really sweet blush....
XDDDDDD

nvm ignore me man....

evac gold...
=.=
1 sat 1 accred
holy stuff
i got nothing much to say...
how i fare...
=.=

blogging more soon...
dun miss me






as if anyone will...
lol


bnn strummed a note at Sunday, June 13, 2004



Tuesday, June 08, 2004

she really got damn sweet smile sia..
cant stand it anymore
=x
going crazy...
arrrrrr....
I WAN HER PICX LA...

ulc is really memories...
so many stuff so many things...
haha...
that spirit beats anything off
=p
UALACA!! HEE HARRRR~!!!!

rein is gd...
i can be rest assured i guess
his spirit is great...
kk... i dunno..
i hope he'll do his best...

sian next time dun lend yf my albums liao
so tyrannic sia
use until bad condition still dun wanna admit wrong
win liao lor

nvm...
i wanna see that smile...
*faints*


bnn strummed a note at Tuesday, June 08, 2004



Sunday, June 06, 2004

ar....
love the smile.......
eh... watching liu xing hua yuan.... hmm... how come her smile resembles makino's smile...
hmmmm....
=x
nvm........
=p
i bought the burner liao lor
stupid lor
=.=
blogging more later


bnn strummed a note at Sunday, June 06, 2004



Friday, June 04, 2004

aww...
i really am in love with the smile and blush...

i jolly well know that's it's an infatuation
i am very well aware of it
but i feel refreshed really
i love that...
*^^*

ok
today i bought the figurine bk!
OMG
greatness
if u dun believe that the same pose in different angle can portray different moods
THAT'S the BK!

YES
i'm not joking
it's excellent bk


bnn strummed a note at Friday, June 04, 2004



Wednesday, June 02, 2004

hmmmm
according to my watch that's it

anyway now feel a little blue

this 10 min is esp lonely
=.=

nvm haiz
i'll think of the sweet smile and blush
i simply love it


bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, June 02, 2004


um....
1 more day...

at least tml i get to see such sweet smile and blushes..
wheee

i'm mesmerised
truly
=o


bnn strummed a note at Wednesday, June 02, 2004



Tuesday, June 01, 2004

i'm completely addicted to that smile and blush
CRAZY

=o
i got nothing to say...
really just too =.=

blogging more later
=p


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